Having writing problems… I have great ideas, storylines that will be great, characters full of conflict, facets and motifs and love stories and tragedies…. I’m itching to write! My mind is full of ideas, my dreams are haunted by scenes of novels unwritten! So what’s the hold-up? I can’t get them on paper. And why? There’s no man I’m in love with at the moment.
I mean that in a purely writing sense. Of course I love Simeon. That’s not the point. But in all of my books, there’s a man I’m absolutely in love with. In my first two novels it was Vitenka, in my second two it was the Duke of Buckingham. I don’t have a man right now.
I thought I was falling in love with Guilhem, but I can’t seem to do it. The problem is, he’s too much of a good guy. I mean, he’s too nice. OK, so he drinks sometimes and sometimes when he’s drunk he gets violent, but he doesn’t mean to, and when he’s sober he’s never mean. It’s not usually the type of male major characters I use. I guess when I got ready to write Guilhem, I was thinking, ok, I’ve written four novels with mean guys. Even Vitenka, who is the protagonist, is mean. And Buckingham is, of course, the major antagonist. I was thinking I didn’t want to get into a cycle. Or, even worse, for people to say “Kora, your men are always so mean and abusive, why don’t you write a nice male character?” But in truth, I think I simply like to use cruel characters for my men.
I’ll be honest, I am writing a book on the side, by hand, in a journal, where the antagonist is autocratic and cruel and probably insane, and this story I am really enjoying. It will never be published. Maybe I’ll put it online somewhere, but it’s essentially a very dark, S&M type sequel to the classic movie “Labyrinth”. So my protagonist is Jareth (the Goblin King) who is known to be manipulative and cruel, and my antagonist is Jareth’s brother, the Lord Aegir (a character from a short story I wrote in High School that I never forgot about). But of course, for copyright purposes and etc etc, I will probably never publish this book, which means I don’t have to worry about people’s opinions and I can just write whatever I want!
Though, I’m starting to figure out that despite people’s opinions, I’d better stay true to myself. I like to write disturbed characters. I like to write abusive men. Don’t ask me why.
Along the lines of abusive men, it was very common in the Middle Ages for a nobleman to abduct a noblewoman he wants to marry and rape her. Normally the rape would bring such disdain upon her that she would be forced to marry him. Can you imagine! So, in exploring this, I have an idea for a quick novella. I can probably write it in a few weeks, just to have something to write about while I wait for an inspiration for another novel to hit me. It will be an interesting topic to explore, and I intend to write from first person so as to practice for The Red Carnation or the other novel I’m preparing to write, which are both in first person. Maybe I’ll post it on my website when I’m done. Maybe I’ll seek to publish it. I dunno. We’ll see.