All the leaves were falling down
They fell into the night upon the ground
They didn’t realize the sun of summer had arrived.
The flowers died out one by one
Their petals wilted in the midnight sun
Succumbing to the fate that you had brought upon me too.
I wanted to admit defeat
Go to a place where we could meet
In the stars
But even though I cried for you
There was more, yet, I had to prove
And forgive you.
A tempest then came howling in
With scorching winds of black and blue and grey
Tearing up serenity and taking flight from me.
The windows trembled with their force
I screamed, but soon my voice grew far too hoarse
I shivered as the walls fell down, the shattering windows’ sound.
I dreamt of you amidst the glass
Your smiling face moved far too fast
As in a blur
And even though I could not hear
The words you spoke to me were clear
Like falling rain.
I fled that sight of tragedy
I ran a race that’d never set me free
With memories as tangible as the road I never found.
I wandered long and wondered hard
If all my love for you had gone too far
And with your absence I then feared that agony drew near.
I heard your voice speaking to me
But strange, your words gave no relief
Of my pain
I felt your hand upon my arm
A hand to keep me safe from harm
Safe from me.
Visions, all I heard and felt
In truth, the world beneath the sun did melt
And as it did my crumbling soul refused to pay your toll.
My days went by without refrain
Like a sadist, you forced me to remain
But though your hold was oh-so-tight, your grip I didn’t fight.
Frightened from your sight, I hid
But silently to me, you bid
For me to come
Eventually I ventured out
But I did not find you without
For you were dead.
A funeral came marching past
Their drums were pounding high into the sky
I followed them in misery to see who it would be.
I slowly moved my aching feet
And stepped in rhythm with the macabre beat
I dropped my head and loosed a cry for the life that went awry.
I scrambled up the column’s line
Ignored the fear of what I’d find
Ahead of me.
Into the casket then I peered
And realized my greatest fear
For it was you.
Your eyes were wide, your mouth was slack
You stared at me and laid upon your back.
I mourned the day you left this land and wept upon your hand.
I thought I felt you breathing still
But my heart’s desire you could not fulfill
You were dead and dead is gone, and I could not move on.
We carried you so faithfully
Across the landscape, and then we
Wailed for you
We counted our steps to the church
And placed you high upon a perch
To gaze at you.
I raised my glass into the sky
And shouted out a toast for you and I
And while the storm outside raged on, our bets with Fate we waged.
Our days were short, our time was done
The lives we’d weaved were now coming undone
We wiped our tears and bid farewell to face the tolling bell.
Our memories were failing us
And in our thoughts we couldn’t trust
We parted ways and I alone
Embarked upon the road to home
To find you
O’er the hills and cross the sands
I lost myself in many distant lands
Forgetting who I was, though I could never forget you.
The promises you’d made to me
Scattered like the soil strewn fallen leaves
Floating on the wings of time subjected to my rhyme.
In many tongues I’d said that I
Would never hang my head and cry
This tristesse tremolo I sing
Hardly dulls the pain it brings
In missing you
I miss you.